i tried
and tried
to close my weary eyes
but my mouth
and my lungs
were not ready
to go
they coughed
and huffed and puffed
having me wonder
what else will spew
from my internal organs
my muscles
my thoughts

'twas a miserable time of sleep
in and out
far from peaceful
as i coughed at different points in time
nonstop
for several minutes
my lungs felt squeezed
one by one
leaving me
having to learn how to control
my breathing
so as to not stop
and now that i am awake more tired than before
i try to eat
since that is what i should do
but my stomach does not allow for any
my heart is slowly closing for the day as well
but not by my own decision

a thought about
you and i
and why
we can not get past
misunderstands
for if we know we
misunderstand
why do we not try then
one gives up
and the other is at a loss
where is the communication
the respect
the desire to work
the ease where one can say
i'm sorry
the other repeats
and we try try again
once some of this is let go of
we are let go of
i feel i am slipping from you
while i dangle
my weak heart and mind
in front of you
but you have not taken it
rather
you would wish to ignore it...