10

a day late
forgive me my love...

i have tried so hard to put away my thoughts of you
into the far corners of my mind
so that i would not hurt so much
but yet,
you continue to surface
and i am forced to think of you...

but i am glad that you do
since in your absence
i have had so much time to think about you
and us
without any contact
simply, thoughts
memories
dreams

as i allow all this to take over
i am sad of course
missing you dreadfully
but also left feeling quite loved,
quite hopeful

for when you return
my thoughts and dreams and memories
will be accompanied by your touch
your face and smile


but for now
i will take silence
for this anniversary
in return for your safe journey back...

i love you now and forever ,

yours...

i am wondering...

i am wondering if you have arrived safely
into the land of your ancestors
the land which may or may not accept you
but above all the land where your beloved father awaits you

i hope that you are well
that you keep in mind the essence of life
of love
and that you remember my smile for you when you are down
and hear my voice calling out to you when you are lonely...

please God keep her safe,
love,
~s.