if only i could...

if only i could...

stop being the one who only dreams
of flying high
only dreams
of my words dancing and enhancing
evolving and solving all kinds of
impossible equations,
slicing into minds but not too deeply like an abrasion

and
then i

catch a nod or two of a head,
someone saying, "that's right"
all from what i just said...
creating momentum
i am
flying
high


but if only i could

as my fears consume me
if only i could
stop the choking
sensation and hallucinations
of humiliation
then i could
fly


if only i could...

if only i could
turn my back on my lack of attack
my weakness turning into bleakness
nothing prepared to share
no shine from mine
BUT in time
if only i could...

s.m.

16...

i watch the clock
hearing it tick tock
closer to the hour
holding such power

i smile at the thought of you
having to remind me (whew)
but of course i would have remembered
another month, another number

but more importantly
we hold onto our love so delicately
bookmarking mouths and fingers and eyes in our hearts so carefully
not wanting to lose the other so carelessly...

happy 16th, my love
yours,
~s.

happy valentine's day ;o)

i may not be a dorkus maximus
poems intertwined with images of us
or 'puter pics and qoutes related

but how wonderful as you create
such masterpieces to this day
continuing to show your commitment

forgive me for what i may lack in that category
but perhaps you can still feel my love for you, hopefully
as i try, in my own way, to prove myself to you

all my thoughts of you, dreams of day and night
bring me closer to our journey's light
and for that, i love you even more

Happy Valentine's Day, my love
yours eternally,

~s.