a letter to my love...

You will be leaving in a few days, and boy is it hitting me now. I know I am good at pushing things away--sometimes in a good way, sometimes, not so good. Perhaps I was in denial this time, as I acknowledged you are leaving, but pushed the feelings away. The feelings are undeniable at this hour, however. The feelings are telling me that there may be absolutely no contact with my love for days. Although we struggle in our own ways over not seeing each other anywhere from one to five days in a row, at least we had ways to communicate, still. This time around, the phone may not work nor the letter idea as the stamps are from here--not there? Perhaps a postcard idea? But, regardless, your face and your voice will not be present during this time in which you will be away. I will not be there for you either, while you are relaxing, enjoying some stress free time, most likely wanting and wishing to share those moments with me.

I just wanted you to know that while away all day tomorrow, I will be thinking of you. I will be focussed on family, but a part of me will be on you--as it always is--wondering what you are doing, if you have eaten, if you are drinking enough water, if you are packed, if you are cleaning, and of course of how much I just love you.

I hope that you and your sister and her friend have a great time, and a very safe journey. i will pray for your safety while travelling and while you are there.

I love you M.
love,

your S.