dream/amma...

so i had a dream about you last night
the kind that had my mind in turmoil and working
for through this dream, i gained some insight
into my fears for you, after they'd been in me, lurking...

you were in a new place
yet, not so new as i could see the coconuts and hear the crows
a new body and somewhat younger face
yet, not so new as old age goes

there were others, familiar but not clear
only you stood out
your sense of urgency , purged my fear
as i watched you stare at me with confusion and doubt

i talk about having 'phantom pains'
as soon as you are in trouble
and thinking about your torture would drive me insane
whatever you felt, i almost felt double

so in my dream
there you were, not being able to say much
tears about to puncture your skin it seemed
taking note of your decreasing mobility and such

you took a look at your hands and feet
and as if i read your mind
i felt for you, an incredible loss of identity
what next, wold you become completely paralyzed?

i stood there trying to take in all of your heartache
strengthening myself to carry you
for you, i could not forsake
and i woke up praying for this fear of mine to spare you...

s.m.